I love college and I've only been there two weeks. I say "there" because right now I'm sitting on my bed with my cat cleaning herself next to me. One of the biggest reasons I came home... I miss my pets so much.

I have been having a really rough week emotionally. But not in the, "my week sucked!" kind of way... more in the fact that I have been experiencing a lot of extreme peaks of happiness, sadness and anxiety. When it boils down to it, the root of the problem is that there is a guy that I really like a lot and I think that he likes me sort of, but he is trying to go after this other guy and I don't think other guy really wants him? But I'm not sure. The happiness is stemming from being in college and being with an assortment of best friends from over the years. I've been hanging out with them a lot. Also, another guy entered my life this past Wednesday. He's really nice and I ended up staying the night at his house. If I wanted to, I could be in a relationship with him, no doubt. So it's pretty much like this:

Guy A likes me. I like Guy A. I like Guy B more. Guy B might like me? But Guy B likes Guy C. And as for Guy C, well, I don't really know where he stands. I might end up introducing myself to him because I might need to borrow his shorts. You might be wondering how I would go about that if I haven't even introduced myself to him yet, but the truth of the matter is that all four of us guys are all part of the 100  people in ucf's Gay Lesbian Bisexual Student Union. So... yeah.

Also, I have been practicing for Fresh Off the Beat, a hip-hop dance group that stemmed off the Filipino Student Association. Auditions are on Monday, and there is another interest session tonight (Sunday) at 7. It is some of the most exhausting work I've done in my life. If I made the team, I would be practicing on Sundays, Mondays and Wednesdays for 3 hours a day. Then for the two weeks leading up to a competition I would practice every single day. It'll be really exhausting, but it will be perfect training for my SM/JYP Entertainment auditions. I'm halfway joking... it's something I've been thinking a lot about recently. I dunno if it will ever happen because I'm European and I don't have ANY asian blood, but it's still something I want to try for. If only my singing was above average....

EDIT: When I say I'm European, I obviously mean I'm caucasian, not that I'm citizen of a European nation. lol I'm American.

I am so not ready for my calc exam at all. But I am so ready for the day following it. :3

There's been so much to do lately, I feel like I am rotting from all of the stuff. Like, actually, I guess there isn't a whole ton to do, but there is just so much going on that I feel exhausted and it's as if I have a mountain on my shoulders. I mean, really! I can feel it right now!! I wish I would write in here more. It's stupid that I don't because I look at it multiple times a day. Hrrm idk, idk, what to do, what to do... I need to start writing in my private journal! I didn't because I discovered I was superstitious and believed that if I wrote about DIego in there it wouldn't work out because that's how it was with like every other guy. Well just like with every other guy, it didn't work out... but I didn't write about Diego in my journal, so that's a ++++ because now I can go and write in it regularly about my lyfe without freaking out.

Umm herm. ione. This summer should be really kick ass because I won't have ANYTHING to worry about sans college stuff... but I think the worrying about college stuff will be way more fun and exciting than stressful. Off the top of my head I can't even really think of anything that I should be worrying about. The summer assignment, maybe (there is always one... right?). But yay

oh yeah I'm in UCF's honors college so go me for working my ass off in high school because it evidently paid off.

My best friend for the next 3 quarters. But really, I do love the Princeton Review. I think the writers are so comical and witty!

Oh, oh! After two weeks of coming in early everyday, I finally understand Calculus again! What I like about this school year most of all is that this is what it is like:

relationship < education, friends

I have no interest in anyone (or at least no one worth pursuing), so everything else is better as a consequence. I like it though :o

Yay, I like my life, except I think I might be spending too much time studying now. :C

Yeah, so today was a very strange day due to the fact that I am never usually this tired. I mean, I am ridiculously tired and I don't know why. I mean . . I got almost 10 hours of sleep last night! I think it is that we sleep in two hour cycles, and that I was woken up at a point where you're not supposed to be woken up . . like at an hour and thirty minutes or something.

Ugh, but yeah I am dying and I should be in bed but whatever. Honami, Jerrica and I hung out today and we went to the mall, and then the sun shoppe (to which Honami cutely asked if we were at the beach because we said we were going there. lol!) where it seemed all of my love interests collectively got together to make it one of the most awkward sittings I've ever had. If Robby, Ryan and Jose were there . . well then, damn, you've got yourself my worst nightmare.

I haven't been writing in my real journal lately, like in 4 days which is awkward, but I am happy about that I guess. Well, no, not happy, but indifferent towards it. I was thinking of just saving something for the weekend where I just wrote about my week since nothing really happened until today purely because of TS Fay.

 I haven't updated this in 4EVA, but I'm always coming on here to look at me friends.

Anyways . . Robby and I are on a "break," but it's stupid and it doesn't even qualify as a break. It's basically a break up, but it's one of those things where it's like, "Oh, well yes if you like me when I like you and I'm ready to date, then we'll date again." So, yeah . . getting over relationships anyways.

Onto school . . I am freaking out because I am really very far behind on my physics and I have my two AP exams and the S.A.T. in two weeks. I don't know what possessed me to sign up for those tests all on the same week, but alas it's happened. I managed to type up my entire Humanities paper while at the same time finishing my four pages of pre-calculus (even though one of them was numbered wrong . . hopefully my teacher doesn't mind due to the fact that I started on 30 when the start was at 26 and I ended around 83 when the end was 80 or something), so that was good. Yeah, but then I bombed the quiz for it, which was bad. I don't know why the hell Mr. Frahm thinks that this section is so incredibly easy . . I mean, I don't think I got anything lower than an 80, but still that's not good.

I just want school to be over. Only an effing month and a half left.

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uhh yeah, had a date with Robby and that went really well. I guess we're in a relationship again?

For being so routine, life has certainly been very hectic lately. And I must admit, I hate it. I can't wait until this time tomorrow so I can be riding home on the bus thinking about how Marching Band 2007 is finally done and over with. 

It's really stupid also that I (and a lot of others) believe that the "Super Hot Senior" might be gay because he knew Eau Gallie had a Straight-Gay Alliance. But I mean, think about it. I've been there for three years, he's been there for three months . . I didn't even know that. Nor did anyone else I asked. But, meh. Whatever. If he's straight, he's straight; if he's gay, I doubt he's interested in me anyways. He just pushed my backpack once, I mean, that doesn't signify anything . . right? I kind of made it out to be flirting, but I doubt it. Maybe rough-housing? Okay, straight-flirting. If he's straight that is.

I'm so over everything right now. Like, everything school based . . School, band, FPS, OM; anything that takes up any of my time where I have to "do" something, I'm sick of. With no good reason except school and band. I actually love FPS and OM, but not at this moment.

Wow . . uhh, a lil' angsty. That was stupid and needed to "get out of my system", but I must confess, it didn't help at all ;___;

I got a 93 on my Humanities test! Which is great because everyone basically failed it (except Adrienne, of course getting higher than me, a 96) and I didn't . . and I'm one of four juniors in that class, so, take that seniors! I really just think people underestimated the workload for the class, I studied my ass of for that test, so I find that grade pretty reasonable.

I also broke up with Robby. It's just hard to have a boyfriend who's not "out" yet, and combined that with the fact that he's on varsity football . . just, not a good mix. If they found out about him and me, he wouldn't stop getting flack about it, so I'm more or less doing it for his saftey. Whatev. "It's all good."

 I was asked to homecoming and of course I said yes. Now I'm really looking forward to it.

OKAY BUT THE REAL REASON WHY I POSTED HERE. Okay so today in AP Lit, we gave our presentation of Tess of the D'urbervilles and I was Oprah in our talk show and Mr. Hammond loved it! It's so hard to get his approval but we did it :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Maybe I'll start off the year with an A? ;)

boyfriends are really tight. No lie, no lie. :)

omfg I love Spirited Away so much. No, I just love Miyazaki so much arrrrrgh! Love love love Hayao.

arrgh, seriously, I'm so glad they killed Tess at the end of it all . . if they hadn't, I would just be that much angrier that she survived. SRSLY I HATE THIS BOOK.

I'm kind of tired of seeing people treating other people like dirty kleenexs, as in once they've served their purpose, they are not needed anymore, so instead of trying to make friends, they just kind of brush the person off.

C'mon. It's annoying, please stop it.

last night was an amazing night, I'll write about it later on today but I have to go to sleep, I am wiped out!

EDIT: I FINALLY FOUND THOSE SHIRTS. I'M SO HAPPY. I NEED TO GO TO AMERICAN EAGLE. BLAKSJDFLA BLAHHH.

So this break has been so great so far. Starting with the most important thing:
1. I got myself a boyfriend, Glenn, and he is so awesome. Everybody that has met him says he's amazingly nice and he talked to my mom for at least an hour when he came over to my house. As in just him and my mom for an entire hour. I'm esctatic about it, I really love this kid.
2. My mom basically knows about my sexuality. She found something that I wrote that said "I love Glennjamin to death" on it and she asked me about it and I told her I didn't write it. But this morning she came into my room and asked me why I lied about it and I said that I "didn't know." So it was a kind of silent exchange of words, but in the end she was like "I'm happy for you, Glenn seems like a really nice guy." 
3. I came out directly to my sister which was sweet and she was like stunned but it was funny.
4. There has been a stray cat that wonders around our house and our neighbour's house and my dad lately has been feeding it bits of food and been putting out bowls of milk. My dad was the one who absolutely did not want our other cat Groucho (which was a wild cat who either got ran over or poisened in our fields when I was three) or Maggie (which is why she lives with my grandma) but ironically, he really has a soft spot for this cat and wants to take it under his wing. I'm really excited because this cat is so sweet, it's kind and nice and loves to play between your legs. I'm glad my dad started feeding him because it would always run away when ever a human would come outside, and now it likes to play with my dad, my mom and me. So horray! We're probably adopting it next weekend or something!
5. I got to hang out with my triplets and I met Meagan and Gina. My triplets are the greatest. I love them. :D